Okay, so last week I did my first blog entry. I was telling you how I had fallen off the “bandwagon”, horded a tin of sugary mints, gorged on several deserts. Since sugar is a definite trigger for me, the results weren’t pretty. As of my last post, I was bound and determined to get back on the “program” with my eating and exercise, and thought I was well on my way. Yeah, I was wrong. A full 7 days later, I’m still struggling to get my butt in gear because even though I was doing well, I fell off again.

This is really hard for me to admit – and very, very humbling for me. I have positioned myself as an expert in this field, and here I am struggling with the very things I tell people to do. But you know what, even though it’s difficult for me to put my pride and ego aside, I want you to understand that I am living with the same issues that you are. I *love* sugar. And when I let it get out of control, it’s not a pretty sight.

So, after last week, I went to a birthday party for a friend and ending up knocking back a few drinks. Then, (please don’t laugh at me – cause you know you’ve been there too) they had these delicious looking cupcakes. I decided to have one (even after I asked myself if it was for my higher good – the answer was “no”, but I ate it anyway), and after one bite of it, I only at the top with the icing. The cake wasn’t sweet enough… LOL.

My boyfriend watched me eating just the top of the cupcake with his mouth hanging open in shock. I must have looked ridiculous – but I just didn’t care! Then it was all downhill from there. The Next day at a kid’s party, they had these deep-fried and breaded chicken nuggets. Now normally, I would NEVER have touched these things, but I ate a dozen! Smothered in BBQ sauce! When I let sugar and alcohol in my body, it’s like I can’t help myself.

Instead of dwelling on what I’ve done, and punishing myself for it – I’m going to get back on the “bandwagon” with my eating. There are times that I’m totally on the “program” and choosing what is for my highest good on a regular basis, and times when I am definitely NOT on track. But I’ve learned to dance with this, and I know that once I’m back in a groove that I’ll look back in amazement that I could get so off track.

I’ve been doing this long enough to know that there’s a pattern here. But now when I binge eat or get off of my exercise program it’s so minor compared to where I used to be! I’m saying this because I want you to know that each time you get back on track it will get better and better. The hardest part is just getting started again.

You might be thinking that it sounds easy to just stop eating, or start exercising, but others who struggle like I do, know that it isn’t easy. I’m going to have to bear down, and white-knuckle my way through this to get back on track.

Believe me, the easy route would have been to fib and say I was doing great since last week – but this blog isn’t about looking perfect for me. It’s about truth. And I want you to know that I struggle just as much as you do – there’s no easy solution, and we ALL have to work at maintaining our health!

Here’s a great video I created about how to get back on track with your health.

In love and service,